I have attachment problems

Well, first of all I can safely say that I think I love my dog, Kaia, too much. I have separation anxiety sometimes when I leave her. I Like when Jeff, Desi, Michael, and I went to Las Vegas for a couple of days. Yeah... I was basically dying. So sad to leave her behind. And when I have to leave her to go to school or work for 6-8 hours, yeah that is sad too. Erin says that when I leave, Kaia runs as fast as she can to my bedroom and watches me leave through the window. Then, she goes back to the front door and sits and whines for quite a while.
Good to know I'm not the only one with attachment issues...
But. The source if this message originally was my thinking about my xterra. Jeff and I traded cars last night, and although I'm doing fine, I do miss my car a bit. You'd think I'd be happy to be driving a Mercedes that is 5 or 6 years newer than my old shaky xterr, but guess what? I'm not that into it. I mean, sure. It's great. Fast. Beautiful. Most conservative in the gas category. It's just hard to give up my monster. I feel like I'm driving around on a skateboard...
But! It's okay. I will overcome my abnormal car attachment and make it through the... week? Month? Whenever it is she will come back to me...

Life and Death

Sometimes, well most of the time, when I'm at Jeff's house his mom is watching Ghost Whisperer. However, tonight I am at home watching it with Kaia Bear. The first couple of times I saw it I thought it was a pretty dumb show. It's pretty interesting to me now though! Which brings me to uhm..."blogging" about it. Sometimes, it almost makes me cry. There are some touching moments in there I would say. But sometimes, it really freaks me out! Is this crazy stuff true?! Like those people that claim to be psychic?? I think I would literally pee myself if a ghost came whispering to me! Which brings me to my freaky used to be haunted house. Every time when I get up in the middle of the night and go in the bathroom, I get really scared and I stare out into the hall (Yes, I leave the door open and the light off). It's especially scary because I have SUPER bad eye sight so all the shadows really freak me out. I almost run back to bed every time.
Well, I should get back to my homework. I just needed a break to talk about Ghost Whisperer :)

Driving Under The Influence

A couple of nights ago, I was driving home from something that was probably super fabulous. And I didn't realize it for the longest time, but I was driving under the influence...
of Gaga. Lady Gaga, that is. I was so into creating an amazing dance in my head that went along to the song, "Poker Face," that I didn't realize I was driving 10 miles an hour UNDER the speed limit. (Yes, agreed. I should have been the video choreographer for that particular video. Especially since I obviously work over-time.) Now, let me remind you, I really hate driving and all the crazies that drive like, well, crazies...and that night, I was being one. If you would categorize annoying people that don't even drive the speed limit as crazies. So, lesson learned. When listening to Lady Gaga in the car, keep your mind on the drivin', keeps your hands on the wheel, keep your filthy eyes o nthe road ahead... and mind the speed limits in order to be considerate of others.

As of right now, I am Jeff's house while he does a minor modification to my car. His mom made SUCH amazing cinnamon rolls... I could probably eat a whole pan. Man-oh-man. Dee-lish-us. That is why I had to share. I shall leave you now to go get another.

Chocolate or Soap?

So I'm sitting here with my dear best 4 year old friend, Jon, at 8 o'clock on Friday night. We're watching Thomas the Engine movies and eating dee.lish.us ice cream. As I took in the creamy taste of my chocolaty ice cream (with little chocolate chunks included), I started thinking about how miraculous it tasted. I had no idea. Dove made ice cream. Then I started to get worried. Dove. Made. My. Ice. Cream. ?? Doesn't Dove make body soap, deodorant, and shampoo? So now I am a bit nervous that my delightfully smooth and fabulous tasting chocolate ice cream may have more than one item in it described as "silky."

What else has happened? Not much. OH. Yes, I took part in a research study thing at the U today. It was titled as a tutoring something. Well, turns out, I went to this room to do geometry for one and a half hours. Geometry. That's math, my dear friends. At first, I was pretty upset about it and had no idea what I was doing (which was even more upsetting because I just passed a geometry class with an A at the U this fall). Then, after I got a hang of it, I blew through those questions like a windy day in March. I will confess this to only those 2 or 3 people who take time out of their day to catch up with my blog... so SSHHHH. I kind of really enjoy mathematics when I understand what I'm doing. That's right, I do enjoy the math.

Love and Marriage

I've realized lately that. Oh wait. I started to realize two years ago that everyone from high school is getting married. Probably every two months I hear of a new person getting engaged. YAYYY for them, right?
Well... I guess so. However, I will mention that my friend that got married at 19 is currently living in her father's basement...
Maybe one of the two people that read my blog are thinking, why are you blabbing on about this? Well, I'll tell you. It is annoying me. Because I'm jealous? Maybe. I'm not sure I'm ready to be paying all those bills that come along with that situation, but I wouldn't mind having my own special day and excitement leading up to it. Along with a niiiice tropical honeymoon. Oh, and I almost forgot to mention a nice diamond on my finger ;) I think I might call the Cake Boss from TLC to do my cake... thoughts? Wonderfully amazing, I know.
Anyway, I am in a technology class right now and am doing everything but paying attention to the teacher. It's hard when you have a computer to check you email, your facebook, your web ct, and of course update your blog! How do they really expect us to learn anything!?
Oh, something else I should mention, I need to do a detox. I spent that past couple of days eating soo many donuts. And chocolate dipped foods. And chips. So, from today on...it's fruits, vegetables, and chicken. I wonder how many days that will last? One half probably.

Waking up is sometimes a waste.

So, today I had an appointment to meet a friend at East High to observe a student in a classroom. We were told by the special education teacher that his class was at 7:45 Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. So I drag myself out of bed at 7 in the morning, which is very early for me lately, and go to East. Well, turns out because of East's block schedule, she had told us the wrong days and that class wasn't even in session. So, I drive home and get a bit of sleep before waking up to go to my own class at the U. What happens there? We are given time to work on our lesson plans. That I can do at home. In bed. On my laptop. But by the time the teacher stops jacking her jaw and laughing at Simon's Cat, I realize it would be pointless for me to leave because I have painting here at 4. I am a little upset about it, even though I was productive in my lesson plan. But now I'm sitting here absolutely alone in the back row because all of my friends left. And I'm wondering why I even woke up today...

Life Lessons... (or at least this week's lessons)

We all learn new things almost every day in our lives. I have learned a few things this week...

1. College means a lot of things. One thing I've come to realize this semester so far is that it means reading. A lot. My life has turned into a novel itself, but mostly one about me reading a million chapters and articles each week for each class. Mind you, I've always been assigned reading textbook chapters every semester, but never before have I actually READ any of said chapters. Seeing as to how I HAVE to now to get credit, I am getting very annoyed with one of my teachers. Why? This week alone, she required us to read and respond to: one 13 page article, one 8 page article, and one huge chapter in the textbook. I almost wrote her an email to inform her I have other things to do with my life, like read for other classes and lay in bed.

2. When you go to get your hair done, you must be really specific as to what you are talking about, even if you've known your hair dresser for over a year. Today I went in for the almost usual: Color touch up and trim. For some reason, I came out with a full set of bangs. Bangs which I haven't had since I was in second grade. Now don't get me wrong, bangs are great. But I usually (for the past 4 years) go for the angled side bangs. For some reason I honestly didn't notice this had happened until after I had paid and was driving away in my car...

3. There are always going to be people who make you angry. My angry spot: driving. My driving = road rage. I hate people who cut me off. And tail me for miles. And start coming into my lane without a blinker and before noticing my huge white SUV. And run red lights almost crashing into me when I need to turn left. I will tell you now, I yell at these people. Even though I know they can't hear me. But don't worry, some of them see the anguish on my face.